PPD 3months pp

I’ve been struggling with post-partum anxiety/depression/rage since I delivered 3 almost 4 months ago. Some days seem fine, others I am easily overwhelmed/angered/ or upset. The hardest part of all this for me is I am a child/family therapist. No matter how hard I have tried to use the tools I coach others on all day long I can’t. It’s hit the point that my 3 year old often wants nothing to do with me and my husband. I finally called to set up an appointment with a post partum therapist. Someone please tell me this all ends and gets better. I’m so sick of trying to fake it and am afraid of breaking at the wrong point.