I’ve come across TikToks where someone will talk about how they can feel their soulmate and they haven’t met them yet. Which I haven’t felt like someone was my soulmate in over 6 years. Then another TikTok showed a couple with a 15 year difference and oh lawd please don’t tell me that my future partner isn’t even born yet or they’re still young. Last thing I want is to be 32 and they just turn 18. Then I wonder, have I blocked love or maybe it’s just not the right time? I’ve had my heart broken before and didn’t know my worth couple years ago so I’ve had a lot of growing to do. I do feel a tad bit insecure about myself due to weight gain so maybe that all plays together. Idk tho. When I think about the future I don’t really see a partner. I don’t see a shared house or kids running around. I see me doing my thing and owning my own money and homes. 6 years ago when I turned 18 and was still with my first love I saw a whole future with them. My most recent ex, I saw kids with him but since those 2 I just can’t picture that lovey dovey stuff but I think I do want to be in love. I was screwed over by them and accepted bare minimum that maybe I have resistance