He called me ugly b word on the phone 4 years ago when we were 16. he was drunk and they say “drunk mind speaks a sober heart” but he claims he was mad and wanted to make me hurt. Idk what to believe. I get so fucking depressed when I think of the past. He used to verbally abuse me really really bad. But he’s changed now, he calls me beautiful and sexy. But I’m stuck in the past because he’s told me things like hes only with me because white gurls are harder to get and black girls are easy. Which is a lie coz I was a virgin when I got with him🙁. hes told me he’s way out of my league and can do way better. It just all plays in my head over and over.