I’m suffering from pp depression. My little one is 4 months old. It’s been a long process but I’ve learned to love her and learned to cope when she’s crying.

I’m getting therapy - group sessions and solo sessions.

But it’s still incredibly draining. I’m constantly exhausted and in need of a break.

My partner is studying and going to be a SAHD but I still do everything around the house. Yesterday I did a lot of housework and had mother’s group. It was 8pm before I got to have time to myself. And by that time I was so exhausted and stressed that I couldn’t enjoy myself.

My partner always tells me to ask for breaks when I need them but sometimes I just catch him at the wrong time and he’ll get annoyed at me.

If I mention that I’m in the mood for sex while the baby’s napping, he gets annoying because he’s on his computer. Which is really triggering for me after my ex shamed me for having a sexuality at all.

He wanted sex last night so he woke me up. I needed to pee and by the time I came back he was asleep. And I fear getting replaced by his hand and a girl in the internet. He told me “it’s hard to want to have sex with you when you’re so sad all the time.”

Every time I ask for something it just seems to get me in trouble. And I feel like I should be punished for it. I had a relapse of self harm recently and I was very close to doing it again last night.