I've always been a huge daddy's girl. I love my dad more than anything and in my eyes he could do no wrong. My ended up doing a lot of wrong. When I was 4 my dad had cheated on my mom and got the women pregnant. I didn't really understand that situation but what I did understand was I was getting a little brother and I never wanted to share my father. Because of that me and my half brother never really had a relationship even though we had met a bunch of times. I also didn't know over the years my dad continued to cheat on my mom with my half brothers mom and probably more. My mom recently told me this, but she had found out she was pregnant again, but because my dad was cheating he had gotten trich and passed it to her. She miscarried and it left her infertile. This isn't even the worst things he's done. When I was 14 I remember police coming to our house and it had to do with my half brother. He was about 9 then. It was about my dad touching him inappropriately. How my dad explained it to me was my half brothers mom had made him say that because she's upset he won't leave my mom for her. So... Being a stupid 14 year old I believed him and just hated them even more. In my mind they were liars trying to tear my family apart. Idk how but court still allowed him to have visitation. I was 19 and still at home and my half brother who was about 14 was over and I didn't talk to him because we had no relationship at all and I really didn't like him. One thing that makes my shudder in disgust is my dad told me he needed my half brothers help cleaning the basement and told me to get him. So I did. I didn't think anything of it. After that I never saw my half brother again and its been 2 years. Recently so many things have come out about my dad touching my other family members. Like my cousins who have no reason to lie. A lot of who he touched were boys, but he touched some girls too. I've had 9 cousins come forward about it 7 boys 2 girls. My mom also told me that she had talked to my half brothers mom a while ago(my parents split up 10 months ago) because she wanted some answers. The last time I had saw my half brother was because my dad had raped him in our basement, but he didn't want to go to court about it again so he just said he didn't want to see him anymore. They also found out down the road my half brother had contracted HIV which they are sure was from my dad since my dad obviously didn't mind giving people STD's. My whole life I was this big daddy's girl. I loved my dad so much. And now I don't know who he is at all! I'm sick. Beyond sick. A part of me wishes I never found out any of this. How do you cope when you find out your parent was basically a monster?