This afternoon I got a call - my pregnancy test was positive! And while I’ve been hoping for this, I’m also so scared. This is my fourth pregnancy. I had two miscarriages last year, and the fact that I have an overly-energetic toddler is a big part of why I didn’t fall apart after the second loss. I don’t know if I can handle another loss. I don’t know if my marriage can handle it. My husband told me he wasn’t sure he was ready to have another one and so I never took the trigger shot that was supposed to make me ovulate, and I didn’t push for sex. It only took one time and now I’m pregnant. And I’m not sure how to feel besides scared. I’m terrified and I don’t even know who I can talk to about this. Bunch of strangers on the internet I guess?