Last summer i called the cops on my husband. He was so drunk, we got into a heated argument, and he pinned me down. Before the cops came, he was about to drive away, but before he could even get away, the cops already came. He was in jail for a mth. He lost his job and his license. He had 2 dwi when he was 18. Hes now 33.

As for now, we both are trying to work it out. But whenever we get into an argument, he would bring what i did up. And tell me all the time that he regrets being with me, im a disease, im bad luck, im useless, it was a mistake to be w me, other women are better, and he even tells me a lot that after hes done w his trial, hes going to leave me. No man wants to be w a woman like me.

Right now im the only one providing for us, i do everything for him. Because of the things he said to me, i feel like hes only using me. Cause im the only one who is still here for him.

Hes been distant to me and he told me its because he cant get over the fact that i called the cops on him. He even said that if he doesnt want to be w me anymore and if he cheats on me, then he has a good reason to cause of what i did to him. But he wont ever leave me at all. He keeps saying hes gonna wait til his trial is over.

Now idk what to do w this marriage anymore. I feel like its so broken, it cant be fixed anymore. Cause he doesnt want to forgive and forget what i did. And he no longer feels the same.

But i find it sad that he pinned me down and verbally abused me, but the love i have for him is still the same.

What do you think i should i do?