I really wasn't looking forward the first trimester because of all it entails. I was actually dreading it. But the past 15 days were absolutely horrendous emotionally. I had to go into hospital every other day to make sure I'm not having an ectopic pregnancy. Was told that I most likely do have an ectopic or a non viable Pregnancy at every appointment. Not once did they give me any hope. Even when we found the subchorionic hematoma that caused all my bleeding right next to gestational sac.

Now I cherish every single stinking symptom! I chocked on my puke twice today. My pillow is absolutely nasty from the excessive saliva production when I sleep, I'm soooooo bloated and constipated. The list goes on!

But you know what? I'm not complaining. Instead I'm thanking God that I have these symptoms, because they make me feel calm. They are a sign that right now everything is alright.

In two days I have another Ultrasound and we hope to finally see a heartbeat (I will be 6w2d so might not be able yet, but really hope we do).

This will be my 4th child and it's the first time I'm thankful for Pregnancy Symptoms!