I’m feeling kinda embarrassed but I have no one to talk about it with and I would like some advice so please don’t make fun of me 😭

But I’ve always been insecure about my body, ever since I could remember I was always insecure about my flat butt and recently I had a baby which made me feel even worse about my body. I’ve been talking to my boyfriend about me wanting to get a bbl but he says he doesn’t want me to get one that he would rather want me to spend that money on a house (but we’ve been thinking about buying a house for years yet we haven’t) I have my savings and let’s just say I can easily afford a bbl to fix the biggest insecurity of mine but he’s the one stopping me. I don’t know what to do I have a 7 month old baby so his support is needed.