My husband just told me I’m not trying hard enough

I have a 1 month

History of depression

I’ve been so sad

I try my best to fulfill my baby’s needs

I’m breastfeeding (currently with mastitis) so my body hurts, I have a headache and nauseous

He yells at our son when he won’t stop crying

Baby has reflux so when he tried to burp him he’ll pat him harder than when he usually burps him

He smokes a lot of weed and vapes, bringing the smell close to my baby but doesn’t do it in front of him

Yells at me for not sleeping throughout the day because I get so cranky when I don’t have sleep yet he HATES doing the dishes so he gets upset when I try to wash my baby bottles

I’m not working so he makes all the money and I want to leave but I’m afraid he’ll have custody of our baby because he brings the bread home

I don’t know if it’s PPD but I don’t feel any love for him at the moment