I don’t know what to do with my acne 😭

Can anyone help me with some advice? I’ve been struggling with spots and acne in the last 4-5 years and it really makes me hate the way I look, I don’t want to look in the mirror or leave the house because of it. I’ve been using different products for acne for longer periods of time but just nothing helps. I want to scrape my skin off. I hate it. 😢 I’m in the UK so if anyone could recommend a miracle product available here or a different diet or god knows, I don’t know what’s causing it and I don’t think I could get an appointment to a dermatologist anytime soon because of covid, but I would really appreciate any advice... I’m desperate 😔