I went for a routine 16 week prenatal check yesterday, my last appointment I was 12 weeks and baby was so active and had a strong heartbeat. I wasn’t anxious or worried I just want to hear my baby was good and find out if my husband would able to come with me to the anatomy scan next month. The doctor had a med student following him who came in first she tried to find the heart beat in the Doppler but couldn’t she then told me this was her fist week in OB rotation so it was probably user error and she would let the Dr know. When the doctor came in he went over my labs which showed everything was good then proceeded to show the student the proper placement of the Doppler. My heart sank when he couldn’t done anything. He asked for small ultrasound cart and when he found my baby there was no flickering of the heart beat. I could tell my his sigh and quietness my baby was gone. He asked to nurse to have one of

The ultrasound techs to bring me back for a full ultrasound but they had already left. At that point I’m crying and he is offering his condolence and letting me know what my options are. I had to call my husband on the way out of the office were I lost it. We were in the clear past 14 weeks this wasn’t supposed to happen and it seems like a nightmare. I have to go back Monday for a confirmation scan and will probably have to go to the hospital from there for a D&E. My husband will be allowed to come with me to this appointment which will be another heartbreak. This will be his fist appointment he will be able to go to and it’s only to confirm the baby has no heart beat. I have a 4 year old who was ecstatic when she found out she was going to be a big sister and cried when we told her the baby might be going to heaven instead of coming to live with us. This has been one of the hardest things I’ve had to go through but I’m trying to be strong for both my daughter and husband.