So I’m around 8 weeks pregnant.

I had two miscarriages back in 2018 that really rocked me mentally, so we decided to wait a while to try again.

I’m really glad we did, I saw a therapist, hubby and I got ourselves out of debt, and even bought a townhome. We’re waaay more financially stable now.

This pregnancy is way different for me, probably because it’s actually viable. We just confirmed the baby and saw the heartbeat two days ago.

I’m super sick every day, feel gross, hate that all I can eat are carby things really and miss working out and seeing the few people I was. (I cut down totally due to covid).

My husband is a financial planner, owns his own business, and does taxes. This is his busiest season and he’s literally gone during the week from when we wake up to until I go to sleep or after.

I already struggle with anxiety, and I feel so overwhelmed and lonely lately. Hubby and I haven’t told anybody basically and I just kind of sit at home with my thoughts. Am I ready for this? Will my anxiety interfere? I’m scared.. All of it. I feel such guilt like I should be happier considering I had two losses and now we’re in a great place to be having a baby.

Today I asked my hubby if we could tell my mom and stepdad now, (we agreed to tell everyone else family wise at about 10w) because I just feel I need someone to talk to since he is away all the time.

Anyway. If you read all of this, maybe just give me a like or a comment. It would be comforting. Thanks for reading. 🥺