Mum guilt

Anyone else feeling the mum guilt? I’m going back to work in a 10 weeks (been lucky to be able to have 19 weeks off with Bub) and I’m feeling really guilty and sad about having to go back to work. Bub will be going to child care 3 days a week and my in laws will have him the other two days. I feel like I’m going to miss so much with him and feel like he will forget me and our attachment will be affected 😭

It’s not an option for me to stay home with him given my career in child protection and that we have a mortgage to pay for.

I’m trying to make the most of our time together but most days are a tired blur 😪 and I’m feeling bad that the time is going so fast. He is a fussy baby and most days are tiring and I can’t wait for him to sleep to give me time to breathe; but at the same time there’s washing and other household things to do which I’m trying to do as well. I know the chores and stuff can’t wait but if I don’t do it, it doesn’t get done. Then when he is asleep, I miss him and want him.

I’m feeling like a bi polar mess of emotions and guilt. I want to spend every minute with him and Bonding but at the same time i can’t wait for him to be sleeping so I can at least have me time (shower eat and sit by myself for some time)

Arrrgghh 😪 sorry for the long post I needed to vent