Should i call the police?

So this guy that sells edible snacks was flirting with me and one day I decided to buy a ‘snack from him, 🍃  i know guys will always flirt so we met out in of visible public Location and I “got” the snack from him, I don’t have a card yet but I have severe anxiety and depression and self diagnosed PTSD so it really helps relax me... fast forward a while later where is the flirting and I go to his place and things get kind of hot and heavy but I tell him that I’m a virgin and I’m not ready for this so we just do finger stuff “ he is the dominant type” SO APPARENTLY HE SAID IT WAS HARD TO CONTROL HIMSELF” and I thought everything was all good, the second time I went there things get high and heavy again but I tell him I’m not ready and we barely know each other but he keeps seducing me and I keep trying to close my legs but he is WAY STRONGER THAN ME and keeps pushing my hands off and kind of holding me down.. so he eventually goes inside me and in my head I kept wishing it would stop and trying to separate his thigh with my hand😭

it’s been a couple months since this has happened and I tried to tell him how I feel but it’s so hard to say the word “rape” and I still had feelings for him at that time so it was all very confusing because my body was saying yes but I was thinking no but I don’t know what to do because if I call we could both get in trouble of course he’s going to get in more trouble the lake it’s very scary to be that vulnerable and everybody looking at you feeling bad for you and talking about you I would burst into tears immediately and nobody knows except my friend not even “SUPER RELIGIOUS PARENTS” who I live with (i know my dad will victim blame me and belittle me for even being there in the first place) please tell me what I should do he hasn’t even apologized yet he Gave ME GONNERIA TOO and he literally was like “ I didn’t know I had it why are you so mad why should I apologize” and that was my “FIRST TIME”

I don’t know what to do I don’t wanna take this to court because I feel like we can handle it if we just have a real conversation but this is such a hard situation please help