This is hard for me to post. But I'm jealous.

Jealous of seeing families with a beautiful home

Jealous of the beautiful baby nurseries

Jealous of the beautiful maternity photos

Jealous of the beautiful newborn swaddles from a boutique shop

Jealous that parents can afford the Snoo

Jealous of the baby moon photos

Jealous of the people who don't have to sacrifice things they want to buy for baby so that they can afford something else.

We can't afford any of this right now. We can get the basics and we have food on the table. We don't have a lot of extra, but our daughter isn't going without anything. She's clean, diapered, clothed, fed, and happy. Our son will be too.

I know these are just things, but this is where I'm at. I've been criticized for dressing my 15 month old in "boys clothing", but it's really gender neutral so that I can pass it along to my baby boy who will be here before I know it. Just because it isn't a dress or flowery, doesn't mean a baby/toddler girl can't wear it. I think she looks cute 🥺 she doesn't need to wear fancy clothes to be cute. I'm trying my best.

I just wish sometimes that we could have the extras.

Thanks for giving me a safe place to post. I'm embarrassed about my feelings.