Just 16 hrs ago as i was an hr away from my ultrasound to see my baby... I watched my baby abruptly leave my body 19 weeks too early. It's the middle of the night now , I'm in a hospital bed, I can't sleep, I can't stop crying & my mind is racing. He or she is not in my arms where belonged. I feel so lost, so utterly extremely lost. I had a d & c because a lot was left inside. I also had excessive bleeding which was expected as I do after the birth of my other children. It happened so fast. No cramps nothing, just a brown discharge gush, I drove 35 min to the hospital & as I opened the ER door the gush of blood... and a clot. 3 min later in the ER room... wasn't a clot but my helpless baby laying there. What's next, what do I do now and how do I stop crying is what keeps repeating. I pray for all of you out there. I pray you have support, resources and faith that time will heal. As much as I want to just curl up in a bottle, ignore the world & hide it seems not to be an option. I hug each of you going through this process. I realize seeing posts how not alone we think we are. God bless each of you.