what do you think about it?

So me and my boyfriend have been dating going on three years.. in the beginning it was amazing. I felt like we connected so much and he was such a sweet person.. always made sure I was home safe after leaving. I started staying with him, I got pregnant fairly quick.. one year after. we did so much, i’ve had very fun moments with him and no one else made me feel how he did. well when I got pregnant everything took a turn and our relationship went downhill bc he wasn’t “ready” for a baby.. he got over it and we mended our relationship but things just weren’t the same. well we just had another baby, literally in January and things have gotten much worse.. and BOTH kids were planned I don’t understand if he thought his sperm was invisible like.. wtf. we got into an argument last week and he goes “I never liked you, we never had a connection we were just having sex” he keeps coming back to my house, leaves come back and repeats.. he’s told me he felt like God sent me to him, he told me he wants to be with me over and over but then you say that? i’m confused and instantly turned off I havent even talked to him since.. if it’s the truth why have you played with someone’s feelings like that for almost 3 years? it makes no sense.. and i’m hurt. like two kids together and you never had a connection with me? he was bringing me around his entire family mom, grandma, dad and siblings aunts I mean this is totally nuts.. how could you fake that for so long and two kids later? we had moments when we were just fine though.. things build up over time. but I honestly feel like things were said out of anger but idk he could have really felt that way as well.. I don’t even want to be with him anymore I feel like it’s over for us and I want to coparent.. but what do you guys think?