First time

My first time was with my mums best friends son and it was over a holiday in Queensland. When I got back we texted constantly than he asked me for a thressome when I go back up to Queensland and I said maybe. After that we stopped talking and it's got to the point where I don't know wat to say to him. I don't regret it being him but the fact that his so far away it kinda hurts. And the fact that I agreed for it to be fling and all that I'm scared to tell him that I was slowly falling for him. Just wanted to put it out there cause I have not be to talk to about it, my friends don't understand they just judge and my mother knows I had sex but doesn't really know the details.