Needing to vent!

I'm currently 28w 2d pregnant with my second baby. My first is 4 years old. When I first found out I was pregnant I was around probably 1 month & at 5 weeks I started having alot of bleeding, cramps & back pain so when I went to the emergency they did a ultrasound and they had told me they thought I was having triplets and the bleeding could be from implantation. So I had my 2nd ultrasound 1 week after my emergency visit & it was confirmed that I was only expecting twins & the 3rd thing (which doctors thought was probably a 3rd baby) was actually a blood clot. A week after that I had a 3rd ultrasound & my baby had passed away. My doctor then told me that it could have been because of the blood clot or the baby not attaching right to the wall. I've been having such a horrible time ever since all of this has happened. I can't help but want to cry everytime I see twin baby's. I feel empty even though my little boy is doing amazing and growing strong inside me. Alot of my Facebook friends who have been getting pregnant seem to be having twins as well. Idk I just feel so sad everytime I see any twin baby's because I feel that, thoes could have been my baby's. I don't have anyone to talk to that has been in a similar position as me. I feel like I have all of this bottled up inside me and not one person that I've talked to can understand how I feel or where I'm coming from.