To all those SAHMs out there...

I was at the tender age of 17 when I found out I was pregnant with my first little boy... I busted my butt to get through high school, work, go to college, earn a degree all by myself as a single parent... I met my husband and we had three more boys. I stayed at home, never worked using my degree because I wanted to take care of them... I wanted to give them a loving home...

But as nine years have gone by... I catch myself in a place where I feel alone... I feel like I’m devalued, under appreciated... and lost. My husbands family and himself care so so much about money and materials and I never did....

So now I have hang ups. Now I feel like my husband wants someone who makes a lot of money, because I stay at home.. I hate hearing how this persons wife is a nurse or an accountant. I feel ashamed like what I’m doing is wrong.

He has never made me feel any type of way and in fact he’s a great husband.... but I can’t help but feel like I’m not good enough...

I take care of absolutely everything around the house... and I still feel like it’s not enough. My husband has never changed a poopy diaper or given baths... I have enabled him because I always felt like this was my ‘job’............ 😢

I don’t want to send these texts to my husband... I absolutely don’t want to... and he knows that... I’ve been bottled up for a few weeks now and he just wanted to know why...

I’m rambling but I’m just so lost in life... I lost my self... I’m 27 and don’t know who I am or my purpose