FEELING DEPRESSEDnot

March 7 I gave birth to my twins boys at 29 weeks one was 2 pounds 7 ounces and the other one was 2 pounds 2 ounces, I was diagnosed with IGUR at 26 Weeks I also started having high blood pressure and was starting to spilling alot of protein. 2019 I gave birth to my first son at 24 weeks and lost him due to Preclampsia, I came in the hospital March 6 due to not being able to breathe and having bad head aches so my OBGYN came and told me there going to do a C-Section in the morning due to Baby B heart rate getting low which his name is now Legend! Preclampsia was sneaking up on me again I am grateful that our father God in heaven covered us I’m struggling day to day when I go see my boys in the nicu I pray every night but I also find myself crying wishing my boys was healthy and home with me. I suffered with infertility for many years so I beat the odds and I’m happy to final have my babies, Baby A which is La’Marcus has been doing great since he’s been in there his feeds are now at 20cc every 3 hours with my breast milk. Baby B has had a lot of set backs not being able to eat and now he’s doing much better his feeds are 2cc every 2 hours I’m grateful for all the prayers for them both , I have to see a specialist I have blood clots in my legs and I’m taking blood thinners for it! Me and my babies are both going through it and are asking for all the prayers we can get i have faith so I know God will be with me and help me get through this depression because I really feel incomplete without my boys being here with me. Keep us in your prayers as I do the same this journey has been hard and stressful but God brought me this far and I know he will see me though.