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Question

Have you even been cheated on? How do you feel about love now and how did you heal from the hurt?

Answer

￼Every single man that I have ever dated cheated on me or used or abused me both physically, emotionally, mentally and cheated as well. I have healed and some of the most unorthodox Ways. That’s probably the nicest way of putting it. I had a rough childhood growing up, my father died when I was four, I was sexually abused at eight, I was an alcoholic by the age of 12, I was cutting, burning, self harm, basically want for man to man to man looking for love in all the wrong places is the nicest way of putting it, I rock-bottom and at 22 from the party lifestyle, I was stripped, I did everything under the sun. By the time I was 12 I could drink an entire bottle of vodka and go to school and no one even knew.￼ I healed from abuse by becoming a dominatrix, it gave me a sense of confidence, control, self-esteem, self-worth, and I stop tolerating the bullshit. I was in a five-year relationship that I was emotionally attached because of two miscarriages, he used me for everything under the sun, and he was a piece of shit sleeping with half our town, after him I took a year to heal, I worked on myself inside and out, I lost 95 pounds that I had gained between eating out every single night along with pregnancies and miscarriages. I finally talk to someone about the sexual abuse I actually had blocked out the memory and after reading some thing on here it triggered it and I spiraled and I gained 35 pounds almost instantly from emotional eating. And I finally let that shit go. I’m truly healed, and even after all that shit that I went through, I’m still open to love, I’m still looking for Mr. right, and casually dating I guess you’d say, after the crap with my ex for five years, that ended in December 2017. I took 2018 to heal and work on myself, I started dating a little bit in 2019 two guys that were a waste of my time and just wanted sucks, didn’t happen, they just wanted to use me, by October 2019 I finally found somebody who is exactly what I needed at the time, and then the virus hit, March 20 20 and we basically were apart the entire year, by June 2020 I met someone else, and we have been together ever cents. I’ve never been jilted to the point that I was bitter or resentful or wanted to seek revenge or anything like that. I still believe in love, I still believe even at 42 that there’s someone out there for me, maybe I’ll find them, maybe I won’t, but either way I enjoy life, I don’t have any children, but all the kids I do deal with my nieces and nephews, I am the best auntie on the planet and fairy godmother, it may not be a fairytale, but there’s some version of it out there I believe, someone who’s your best friend and more in life, somebody you have fun with, someone who’s everything you’ve ever wanted. You would think with all the crap I’ve been through I would be the most anti-love, bitter and resentful person, but I’m not. I let all that shit go, and I’m just enjoying life and taking it one day at a time. Whatever man may come or go, that’s OK. You are better off alone than a bad company, and I learned to not tolerate the bullshit, I learned that it’s OK to walk away, and I learn not to allow guilt or manipulation to roomie. I set boundaries and I don’t tolerate anything anymore. I am a warrior, I am a survivor, I am victorious, I am not a victim. And being in a relationship or having a man or the size of your pants with a number on the scale none of those things to find you or your happiness, none of those things complete you, you complete yourself. Life is what you make it, if you aren’t happy, you change what you can, and what you can’t change, you learn to love, accept and embrace yourself flaws and all.  ￼￼￼￼￼￼

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