Sex life

My boyfriend and I aren’t sexually compatible. I always want sex he never wants sex. And when we do it’s just meh. Im not asking for advice i rust needed to rant. It’s so frustrating particularly because when we first got together it was every day multiple times a day. I just feel so unwanted and unattractive. I don’t even try to have sex anymore I just let him initiate it because I can’t deal with getting turned down all the time. It’s such a kick to my self esteem. I know he loves me but he just either has a low sex drive (like once a month) or I’ve been thinking he may be A sexual.