I'm so fed up

I grew up with my mum being able to have 4 children... Perfectly. No problems no complications. I grew up thinking having babies was easy.

It's Not Easy.

I'm the only one in the family struggling.... My 19 year old sister got pregnant....

My 18 year old cousin got pregnant.

I thought this month for sure.... I even got a faint positive.... But 3 days later and my test is no darker.... Just a little shadow of a pink line.

After 4 MCs I'm done. I'm so fed up of hoping for something that obviously just isn't meant to happen for me.

I have a scan on Monday, to see as my fertility specialist requested it when I got a positive test.

I'm just fed up