I was with my BD for about a year. Our relationship has been nothing but the most beautiful yet abusive and toxic ive ever known.

He has mental issues due to drug use. (Almost like slow progression, it takes him awhile to get shit but after it hits him, it hits him hard)

So the way he thinks sometimes just .. isn’t.

Sometimes it’s crazy like he has a vaccine for Covid, other times it’s like this, not his baby? 🥺

He wants me to in his words kill our baby as he is putting it in his head that it’s not his. I’m at a loss because I never thought he would react like this since we have talked about what if we spent our lives together as every normal couple does.

All this after turning around and apologizing and wanting to be there.

His problems I’ve been patient with, he is sleeping downstairs and we haven’t spoken in 2 days. We found out 5 days ago.

Also his drug use was BEFORE me (weed & meth as far as I know) and we broke up during Christmas bec he did put his hands on me and he ended up using crack Cocaine and ever since then he like goes into “neutral” is what we call it. He gets stuck and almost glitches? Repeats himself a lot. I got back with him after I found out bec I was so worried. He said it’s bec I left him. I was dumb. I just don’t know what to do now.

I don’t use drugs, he is the first guy I’ve dated with these kind of issues. He isn’t addicted he just smokes marijuana but his body and head and nerves are so fucked up already.