Feeling torn

From the day we met, he knew it was a dream

For me to be a mom and married. We have both made mistakes and hurt each other in the beginning. We see a therapist now. We have a 7 month old. Weve been together for almost 2 years. When were good, he’ll talk about marriage and he wants this and that at our wedding. But when we fight or he’s angry, he’ll dangle that in front of me. He says he’ll never marry me . He says if I never messed up, we would be married. He knows how much it hurts because how much it means to me. Then he’ll apologize and say he was just angry. I just don’t know 😔