Anniversary Vent

Today marks 3 years married. We've been together almost 5 and TTC since 4...this past year was rough of course but our sex life went from like once or twice a week to once every month or two. For a while I struggled thinking I wasn't attractive to him anymore, maybe the miscarriages have changed his interest, etc...

But today of all days I expected something. I'm right in the fertile period... I asked for it last night but then he decided not to come up to bed with me so that didn't happen and today he said he's not in the mood. I even put my nicest outfit and bra on and put effort in...

I'm just sad. I miss the connection the sex had. I miss him.