Wish I knew this group was here

Michelle

Really wish I knew this group was here. My husband and I been ttc for 2 years now with a mother in law always asking if I'm pregnant yet telling me the baby's name she picked out. Its been very frustrating...so I decided to get my blood work checked out because my af was now being weird and always no more than 4 days late or missed it completely....but here's the thing I never got a call and the doc said if no call everything's good...few months go by and im seeing a nurse for something I ask about my blood work turns out I "slipped through the cracks bc of covid" and no one called me I was so pissed. Turned out my level is a 9 and it needs to be higher to make a baby but then the doc went out and said im to heavy to be on medication to get my numbers up....so of course im blaming myself feeling guilty while mother in law is pushing and pushing....im 5'7 264 at the time so march comes around and I finally said enough im gonna work out so I can get on the medication...I had lost 15 lbs in a month...249....I was late 5 days and thought well losing weight makes af go crazy I probably just missed it this month. But I was feeling tired didnt want to workout felt even worse after working out...so hubby made me test. Was the fastest positive test and darkest test ive ever seen. I don't know if I can post of positive test...I just wanted to share that doctors may tell us things like you can't get pregnant because your fat or whatever the reason maybe but im proof that doctors can be wrong...I had no hope that I'd be pregnant bc of my doc. Once I became healthy....eat healthy, had a healthy mind set...I think thats what changed for me because I ended up less stress about ttc and more focused on my mind not blaming myself...its so easy to stress about it. And its so weird saying dont stress about it lol bc its easier said than done...I mean this will be my 3rd and I know you stress about it you won't get it....you don't stress about it better chances but at least for me I know all this and yet I can't help to stress to blame myself for being so heavy to not have another...working out helped with that stress...I put all my stress in each workout I didn't focus on ttc...and ended up happening anyways...idk I guess my long way of saying anything can happen...and I hope this is your month of ttc ladies baby dust to all....