Forth pregnancy

Hi y’all, I’m not sure why I’m posting but I have no one to talk to about it. I had a miscarriage last month (March) and I’m immediately pregnant (April) and this would be my forth pregnancy after having two miscarriage and a live birth. I didn’t think this pregnancy would affect me but I’m having huge doubts about it. I know my chances of having another miscarriage is almost 30% so that’s why I’m not holding hope. I’m not happy about this pregnancy but extremely emotional about it. I’m not ready for another baby due to my daughter only being 10 months old and about to move from Guam to South Carolina. Has anyone had any similar feelings after they got pregnant? Is it okay for me to feel like this?