Celebrating 40 wks+4 days

Sometimes being pregnant is challenging. This is my 5th pregnancy, 4th viable. This baby has challenged my spirit so much already. I overcame panic disorder, depression, and anxiety through this pregnancy. I have learned to embrace my life, to take risks, to relax, to take pleasure, and most of all to trust. Trust my body. Trust my baby. Trust God.

This will be my first homebirth and my last baby. Ive been planting flowers everyday I am still pregnant. A symbol of my continued time of fertility, my continued time of growing something beautiful, my continued time of embracing the unknown by living lusciously in the present. Most of these are perennials and so next spring as my baby turns one I will be reminded of the state of mind I was in a year before. It has been so fortifying in this process to sow into my outdoor space. Knowing my husband will tend to it with our littles as I recover, that the flowers will remind him of his wife's resiliency and persistence. My hope is that it will bring him peace and remind him of the joy we share in creating this lovely outdoor space together, building this life together, and sharing it with one another.

This is my baby garden and I can't wait to watch it grow!