I’m a SAHM. My partner works 40+hrs in a week. We live with my parents since rent in our area is far too high for us. My partner isn’t too worried about money and is willing to give me money if I need it. I don’t ask, idk I feel wrong asking. Anyway, I’ve been trying to look for a job that I can do from home. The thing is I have really bad anxiety when it comes to talking to people over the phone so jobs like customer service scare me. On top of that, my daughter isn’t on a set schedule. It’s not like she goes down for a nap at specific times. We have a routine so our days can look VERY different. This makes it difficult to find a job. And honestly I just don’t trust anyone to take care of my daughter. I was on unemployment bc of covid but they haven’t paid me for over a month now bc they’re renewing PUA claims and have yet to message me whether my claim is being renewed or not. Thinking about me not having a job and being able to help financially AND know that I can’t help find an apartment for us bc I’m unemployed makes me really anxious and I start to feel so shitty about myself. I contemplated on making soap and lotion with breast milk infused and possibly selling that but I talked myself out of it bc idk why I thought it was stupid and that possibly no one would buy from me. I hate myself for being the way I am.