Venting please pray for us

I just have so much anger right now I want to scream I want to cry I feel so jealous of everyone getting pregnant we been trying over 9 years we had multiple medicated failed cycles, multiple push back iui because of cyst on my ovaries. After my 2nd iui I finally got pregnant we finally got to see two beautiful lines bloodwork confirmed we where pregnant we had to re check bloodwork to see if my numbers doubled we waiting so excited for my doctors call that day just to find out that it was a early miscarriage. we were devastated my husband tried to be strong for me but I know how hurt but doctor told us we could continue with another round because I was so early that we continue with our 3rd iui so here I am 10 days past iui and I am angry because I took a tested several times and I lost my faint line. I tested my trigger out and my trigger was completely out by 6 days past iui on 8 days past iui at night my pregnancy test was back the line was faint and pink we the line was there I tested 9 days past iui yesterday and my line was there in the morning I tested last night and this morning and all my test are negative yesterday I felt like shit!! I cramped so bad my lower back pain as cramping I had a fever all day today I feel normal with negative test. Please please pray for us I am so angry I am so sad!! I am so mad that I can’t afford to pay 25,000-30,000 for a round of IVF!!! I am mad I have medical insurance and it doesn’t cover anything not even medication. I am mad that we just can’t afford IVF right now I am so mad at myself and my body I don’t understand.

Ughhhhhh