I posted about how stressed I am a few days ago without giving much detail and was really upset by the extremely judgey, snarky comments like “what do you expect them to do for you??” and “pregnancy isn’t a disability, you know”... so I’m going to try again.

I love my career (I’m a psychologist)

I am over the moon to be pregnant 🤰🏻🥰

But... I was already pretty fed up with my **job** (not career) prior to getting pregnant. My field is insanely competitive, I came in second after interviewing for my dream job and then the pandemic hit. I had to choose: postpone starting our family or postpone moving on in my career. I’m 32, I’m very glad I chose to get pregnant since it has taken a while and I miscarried along the way.

I specialize in high risk self injury and suicide, but our team isn’t well supported/supervised (our boss seems to have lost interest). I told her I was pregnant at 6 weeks knowing Id need the support. I already have more cases than I’m supposed to, I’m on call 24 hours, AND I don’t have a reliable back up anymore (he just resigned 😐). Far from extra support, she’s loading me up with most of his cases and they’ve been unable to replace the 3 other therapists who left this year.

Our cases are meant to be a 12 month commitment... I’m due in December. So now I can either lie or try to convince people to start working with me knowing they’ll have to switch therapists half way through... 🤯

I am sick as a dog and my calendar is packed back to back every day. I’m at the end of my rope. I have never ever wanted to be a house wife (still don’t!) and yet now I wish I could afford not to work and didn’t need my maternity leave/insurance. My boss has actually bragged about coming back to work voluntarily just 3 weeks after her 2 girls.... I’m just SO burnt out. I am both dreading and yearning to be visibly pregnant. At least my boss will have to acknowledge that things are changing and she can’t act like I’m going to be there in January.