I’m 14 I live with my dad and sister my mom died a year ago on my birthday and I’m not ok but I act like I’m fine but I’m not my dad won’t stop hitting me and touching me and trying to put his thing in me I didn’t know what to do I couldn’t tell my sister so I started sh and drug use and I’m having panic attack he won’t stop hitting me and at night he won’t stop hitting me he said he is doing this because he love me and he said that he can’t wait to do the thing my mom and he did to show he really love me he tried last night but he couldn’t put it in so he put his finger and it hurt so bad I told him it hurt and he gave me some pills and I passed out and I woke up bleeding down there you might think I’m dumb but can some one tell me what this is he keeps on saying it’s because he loves me