11 dpo rant

11 dpo and I’m feeling out. Got a big fat “Not Pregnant” on a digi.

Had a miscarriage last month.

I’ve been so careful, had sex at the right time, avoided *everything* that’s bad for pregnancy. I’ve had ALL the symptoms. And still nothing.

I know it will be my time at some point, but this is wearing on me already. My problem with TTC is I can be a bit obsessive. It’s literally all I think about. My hopes get so high, only to be destroyed.

I’m about to pour myself a nice big cup of black tea with honey (which I’ve avoided for over two months), and just relax.