Induction opinions

I’m pregnant with my 3rd, and my due date is October 26th. My oldest son died as an infant on October 23, 2018. So I’m going back in forth about being induced or risking a spontaneous labor. I went into labor with my 1st at 38 weeks, and was induced at 39 weeks with my 2nd.

I do not want to give birth on the 23rd. I’ve had a lot of people try to tell me to look at the bright side. But I don’t want to have to pretend to be happy all day when I’m just surrounded by grief. But what are the odds that I’ll actually give birth on that one day, right? I also don’t have a problem with being induced, except that it takes so long sometimes and I don’t want to be away from my son for days.

I know I have a while before I actually have to decide but it’s been heavy on my mind since I found out my due date. I’d just like to hear some opinions and what you might do in this situation.