I cried and cried because I haven’t been getting sleep. Baby is going through a growth spurt(4 months) so he woke up this morning and I just cried next to him because no one could watch him

I feel like a failure, I never wanted to cry in front of my kids. But as I was crying he put his hand on me which made me feel so much better. He then smiled at me after..... I have officially failed as a mom...