Life sucks rn

I’m not in good terms with my boyfriend. My twin brother has been doing bad mentally. Yesterday he called 911 because he was having dark thoughts. I just feel so alone. I haven’t heard anything from him since he left. This fuckin sucks. To top it off I have to go to work in hour pretending everything is okay. It was so hard for me to get up from bed today. He’s still in hospital I’m assuming he’s there because they are observing him. I’m trying to stay strong rn but I’m breaking down. I don’t have the strength to get up for work. This fuckin sucks. I explained everything to my boyfriend he just texted me he wants time alone he’s not trying to be insensitive. Honestly it would be nice if he was here. It sucks hearing your brother that he has dark thoughts. I have zero energy. I’m trying to have the strength but I can’t.