My friend dropped out of school. Ever since I was a child I tried to prove how much better and smarter I could be, I wanted to be the one child that got good grades and made good decisions but I’m honestly so burnt out. I don’t want to spend my teen years doing work, stressing because if I’m being honest I wouldn’t be happy dying now and my greatest achievement being 100% on a test. Everyone lectures me on how graduating and finishing school is such an achievement, so many opportunities. I have worked this hard and at the moment I just don’t care, I used to, I could fail a test and not be bothered. The one thing that is stopping me is the disappointment my parents would have. My mum would say, you’ve come this far why quit, she wants to move and can only do that when I finish school, wouldn’t that benefit her. My dad is the worst, he expects me to go to uni, we don’t have the money for that and regardless I don’t want to go anyway, I would spend my life in school, he says when you go, but I’m not. But it’s not like I can just drop out, I have nothing to fall back on. I have nothing else, school has become my life and I would struggle to live. But i live my life with fear and anxiety because of school, I cried, I feel numb, I don’t like it, after school I won’t have anything. I dont know what I want to do and I have a few months left. Honestly fuck this shit, it’s so toxic.