Heart Aches

I had to deliver my rainbow baby at 26 weeks and 4 days because of my blood pressure being dangerously high and they couldn’t get it under control and she was growth restricted. I’m hurting knowing I can’t take her home even though I can see her at anytime but it’s so hard because of my c section and me being under a lot of stress of not pumping enough. Even though she’s been doing great , it just hurts because you never know if your going to get that call. I want her home and depression is setting in quick I cry every single day .