I read some post about a women having a abortion because she didn’t know the father of her child

I’m going through the same exact thing and I can honestly say I’d rather kill myself because I don’t think I can go through with a abortion 😢 I’m so scared that I’m making the wrong decision by keeping this baby and I’ve told my boyfriend that it’s his baby and he’s so excited now even through we wasn’t together when I went off with the other guy and he went off with another girl. not knowing is what’s killing me inside the most it’s like a deep pit and you can’t get out of it. My pregnancy has been horrible because of this I’ve cried almost everyday since the start. I’m just making ends meet with my job and I don’t think I can pay the amount they want for a dna test before birth, I’ve messed up really bad and I’m scared my baby is not going to have a dad. I just wanted to share that because i gave nobody else to talk to about it and I’m really on the verge of doing something stupid :( if anyone on here is thinking about going off with someone else just because he did just don’t do it or you will end up like me and it’s the worst feeling ever I feel anxiety, depression, hatred towards myself i just feel like not living anymore and it’s just not worth it all because I wanted to match him and I failed.

Edit

My last period 10 December 2020

My due date is 14/09

I have a 28/29 day cycle

My estimated conception date is 22nd December

I’m currently 23 weeks and 4 days today

I slept with my boyfriend on the 18 and 19h of December and the other guy on the 25th of December

I told the other guy when I was pregnant at the start and he slapped me across my face I just hope the baby isn’t his, thanks for your help girls 😞❤️