I’m really struggling, more than I ever have. My weight has always been an issue. I’ve always been the fat one in the family, like a sore thumb I stuck out. Around 17/18 is when I started to lose weight and it happened fast I went from being a 30/32 to a size 14 that’s when I was diagnosed with type one diabetes and was put on insulin and a bunch of other medication. Fast forward to 2014 I was 20 turning 21 I was 330 and I just had my daughter. I’m now 28 I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and it is absolutely terrifying to just keep gaining weight and to feel like nothing I am doing is helping.

Before the pandemic hit I was planning baby number two I was happy I was healthier I weighed a lot less and now all of a sudden I don’t know how it happened

I don’t know what to do or how to do it. I’m actually disgusted with myself and the lack of mobility. Everything hurts. Simple every day tasks have become a chore. I dislike myself and this so called life I have and despite what people think about overweight people sitting in bed every day eating that’s not my life I don’t do that so I don’t know how it got this bad but it has and I just need help. 

Ps fat shamers: please be nice I beat up on myself enough for the both of us.