Squirting (sorry for the long story)

Okay my husband and I have been together for quite some time and even before we were married he has wanted me to squirt for the longest!

It’s not the fact that I don’t ever feel the urge to do it. It’s the fact that I’m way too nervous! Even him being my husband! I know it comes out the same hole as your pee right? So I don’t want to make a mistake a pee at the same time because I have heard MANY stories about that. Though he is my husband/best friend and I’ve done much embarrassing things and have cracked up about it at the end & I know if I did do it we would just crack up about it but still deep down in my heart I would be super embarrassed!😂😂 Maybe I’m embarrassed about turning him off? I don’t know…

Sometimes when he hits the spot he is very consistent with it because he knows by my facial expressions. Sometimes I even try to hide the fact that he is hitting the spot when I feel like I’m gonna squirt so he doesn’t say anything or so he doesn’t know to stay hitting the same spot and every single time I fail because he knows me like the back of his hand at this point! He will just tell me “stop holding it in!” and he will try to encourage me like “don’t be embarrassed” “don’t worry it’s okay I’m here”. Things like that but that also makes it a thousands time more harder because him being supportive and courageous is sexy!!!!😂

It’s really hard to hold it in sometimes…like it’s crazy! Sometimes I can’t even hold it in and I have to make up a quick excuse like “now let’s do this position!”. So he can stop. I want to do it for the first time and get comfortable because he is super patient about it and he doesn’t get upset when I don’t do it but he just doesn’t want me to be nervous. He is a great partner when it comes up to things like this. I also don’t know why I’m nervous because the man took my virginity and I was gushing blood everywhere that night and he was super sweet enough to still take care of me despite of all the blood.

I think I was only comfortable with the blood because I LITERALLY knew there was NOTHING I could do about that. But the squirting I can hold back…for now…I feel like my body so sick and tired of me holding it in at this point it’s just gonna burst the next time I have the urge to do so.

What should I do? What are your inputs? If you do squirt how do you convince yourself to just let go? If you are the same as me what is the reason on why you can’t let it go?