feeling defeated

Remember when Austin Powers lost his mojo? Yeah that’s me since having our baby. Our two kids are much older and we had them young, I didn’t breast feed and I had a cesarean, so I don’t think I went through this with them.

I’m feeling like I lost my body. My breasts are obviously not the same, my lady bits are also very different (I had a second degree episiotomy) I’m not feeling the same amount of pleasure, I’m worried I lost sensation but hoping it’s all psychological... my hubby and I tried to be intimate the other night and I was very nervous which is not like me. He didn’t seem into it. To be honest he hasn’t been into it since I was visibly pregnant.. I don’t feel attractive, in fact I feel pretty insecure for some reason. It feels like I am a different woman. I’m a older mom now, less fun in general (my life is dedicated to all the kids and my studies, there is not time for much else) and I’m not sure if this season will pass.. is this normal? :(