Trying to go meat and dairy free

Hello everyone,

I decided I want to go meat and dairy free, eating fish from time to time.

I followed this diet in the past for 4 years and felt great! my body looked amazing I barely had any fat and my overall health was great too. I was sharing this diet with my ex boyfriend and he lost lots of extra weight too we were fine and all.

Now, 3 years ago after we broke up I moved back to Italy where I live now and I was convinced (forced) by my family and circumstances to go back to eat everything and I regret that terribly. I've gained weight and I have stomach problems from time to time, that's why I want to go back to my diet but everyone around me is totally against it, my boyfriend is a very convinced meat eater and in his family they consume a huge amount of meat, his friends are the same! now in summertime we are invited to many bbq and when I'm trying to avoid meat they are making fun of me or treat me like an alien 🤦🏽‍♀️

I think it's childish, stupid and not respectful at all.

My boyfriend is the first one allowing this and I feel like I need to constantly fight against everybody to follow my beliefs. Which I hate. Unfortunately I cannot change the mentality of the people around me but how to be more confident and strong? Another problem is here in my city it's hard to find dairy free products or meat substitute products, BUT I really want to go back to who I am. Although it's a constant struggle against everyone + with myself because everytime I eat meat to please people around me I feel sick! I'm tired of justifying my choices and argue but I want to be me. I feel the only way to be myself is to move abroad again but it's something I cannot do right now. Ahhhhhh I honestly hate this. 😩