I am so scared to have sex after I give birth😩

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I’m only 5 months going on 6, and I’m terrified of having sex after I give birth Yes the sex is great now. But I have heard stories of it feels like your first time all over again, and my first time was not the greatest experience.

I was raped, and it just makes me horrified that it’ll bring back all the painful memories. My fiancé is the sweetest man ever and I know he will be gentle as he can. But it doesn’t ease my mind. I have talked to him about it and he said for me not to worry because he isn’t like my ex. I know that at the slightest pain he can sense he’ll stop but I don’t want to break down and cry because he will feel bad for hurting me. But it wouldn’t be so much of him hurting me as memories.....