My secret

been trying to get pregnant without my husband not knowing and it did not work we recently started looking into buying a hiuse well we are on the process of doing that and I started talking to him about having a kid at fort he said he wasn’t ready he wanted to wait and now he is telling me that we should wait at least when we get a house

I’m trying to convince him to at least try this month and he told me that right now we can’t … we can afford it but right now because of everything happening and the pre approval got delayed that we can have another thing happen that how he explain it

am I being too pushy ??

or should I wait when he is ready ??

there is some days where he is like he wants a baby and there some days that he want to wait

we just started doing it fully without condom and using a numbin spray for him since he doesn’t last without condom at all and it’s working….

I really want to get pregnant but at the same time I understand why he is saying he is not ready

we don’t have insurance we’ll it doesn’t start till July 20 something and we got all of this whole process to see if we move to a house and leave the apartment but in my mind I am saying we got 9 month or less to worry about the things for the baby all I am worry is to check if I can even get pregnant is that being selfish

I need someone to be completely honest with me