Triggers

My husband has a history of being abusive. We got into an argument and he threw a lit candle on the floor and got glass everywhere and wax all over my wall. He doesn’t think it’s a big issue and said the candle only cost $5. Like really? What is wrong with him,. Matter fact what’s wrong with me for tolerating this behavior from him yet again. I just want to break this trauma bond bullshit . I need peace. I’m so depressed over this. He got upset I called the police. But I can’t take any chances with him! He has thrown drinks in my face and put his hands on me too many times! I feel threatened and scared when he breaks things in front of me because I’m thinking I’m next! Please help me with any online counseling tips!