Officially completed all of my doctors fertility workup tasks. HSG was normal, no blocks, husbands sperm was above average, bloodwork was ok (high FSH) but nothing alarming, ultrasound showed no fibroids, OPK strips show I ovulate each month and I’m at a healthy weight.

Nothing indicates something should be wrong but after years of TTC, obviously something is wrong. Newly married couples are now pregnant and after being married for 5 years it’s obvious to most that something is wrong with me.

My doctor wants me to try <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> and honestly, idk if I want that. I feel guilty for not jumping at any chance to conceive but part of me feels SO guilty for all the babies already here without homes. I’m very pro-choice but someone needs to be stepping up to take care of all these unwanted children. Maybe it’s me? Just venting here but no one ever said how hard it was to decide what you even want a child and then to have to decide and grade HOW badly you want a child. Not to mention bringing up a child in this dying planet and horrific at times world.

Just frustrated, annoyed, disappointed and confused.